Eternal Question
I am not a poet, as many people know. I don't understand the basic structure or phrasing of poems. Grammar rules are not always followed by them. However, in this instance, I had to write a poem for a grade at the university I was attending. I found it challenging and irritating to write. I don't write many poems. Even though I narrowly passed that class, knowing I didn't have to retake it was a relief. I adore reading it. I just don't like writing them. Now, with that said, I share one of the few attempts at poetry by myself.
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Eternal Question
Why? This question dances around in my head,
Day in and day out, at work, play or in bed,
Why did you leave? Why did it have to happen this way?
As my mind dances around with this question,
The way we used to move around the dance floor,
Our nights were always endless,
Spinning around and around staring in each other’s eyes,
But now I am just left with my mind spinning restless
-ly, to the tune of this answerless song “why?”
I ask friends, family I even ask God, Our Lord,
Always ending with the sense that I am being ignored,
No matter how hard I shout
Or cry I am left with a feeling of emptiness,
I remember all the happy memories we had
But just like our days together they are all
Gone. I saw all our dreams and goals fall
The day that you took your last breath.
God how I wish that it had been
me who danced with death
On that day you left me,
Why? It should not have been your turn you see,
I still yearn for your face, voice, and touch
Family once told me that
In heaven you await our reunion,
Until that day, I will try my best
To be worthy of his call for God himself to undo this disunion.
I know that I can still and always,
Find you in my dreams, nights, or days,
Why? This eternal question I shall dance with
Till we are in each other’s arms again.
Till then I guess I am left to fend
For myself in this forsaken plane
Of existence without you.
Why? God, why?
I will be strong till then,
Good night.